ENVY

Envy can take on many forms. It can cloud your judgement of others. Inject hate and bitterness in your blood. Every word that comes out is filled with vitriol. The notion that you want what another person has drives you mad. Because deep inside, there’s a part of you missing. Slowly pushing you over the edge where you discount everyone. In your head, you are the only one who deserves everything. 

Envy could very well be part of the Ego family. The spoiled cousin who throws a hissy fit when no candy is available. All actions become unreasonable and illogical. Eventually entitlement strolls along to wreak havoc. Anger settles in to raise hell. The thinking is - the world treats me unfairly, the world owes me and I deserve better than this.

Envy can also pull you down the spiral hole where depression and self-doubt reside. The constant jealousy of others and their possessions simply destroy you inside. Your confidence and self esteem are nowhere to be found. You grow to resent yourself more than others. That’s what Envy can do to you in a heartbeat. Traps you in fantasy land that you can never be the hero or escape from.